Pretty soon you'll be getting married, and I realise that the day that happens all ties between us will finally be severed. Well, I suppose not all ties. We'll still be friends, but the special bond we shared will be history forever.
The point of no return with regards to the end of our relationship was passed the day I had to find out from my best friend that you were engaged. Engaged????? I was completely freaked out by it. I wasn't even aware that you guys were back together....we were out just a couple of nights before.....we had unfinished business....we had unfinished affairs and we had an unfinished story.
I guess we'll never have the time to complete that story now. So I'll write the letter to replace the happy ending which should have been.
I think I've mentioned before that I have not been in love very many times in my life. You my dear, were one of the few. I will never ever forget the night we met and the absolute confusion in my mind as to why for the first time in my life I was at a loss for words(this does not happen very often) and my state of complete witlessness was disturbing to say the least.
Your devotion and love caught me completely off guard and for the first time in a very long time I was completely and utterly whipped. I even tuned to your station to listen to you do the breakfast show. A really really big thing, since i professed my hate of your employer the day I met you, and I vowed to never listen to it...not even for you.
You made me laugh, love, cry, hope, happy and sad all at the same time. You scared me, but also made me feel safe and cherished. You shared my love of music, poetry and writing, and you promised me a story.....our story.
My parents were elated when they found out who the mysterious young stranger of my dreams were, and you were accepted into the family in an instant. Friends were amazed at how dependant i became of your presence and your approval....me, the little miss know it all who can do anything on her own.
My future looked rosy and the life we were planning seemed perfect. But the stress and the toll of our busy lives eventually removed the rosy sunglasses of love from our eyes and we started seeing each other for who we really were. Even so we were perfect together and we braved the unbreachable gaps between our schedules and our lifestyles.
Spending time together became difficult and rare as you were working during early morning and were off during most of the day and couldn't stay out too late, while i worked during the day and could only party at night. We finally decided that for the time being we had to call it quits....in the romance department anyway. Quality time had become almost impossible as we both climbed the ladder of success in our careers. We were lovers no longer, but friends with a special bond....who sometime forgot that they were supposed to be only friends.
Then suddenly my little world was shattered. You were engaged and our story was over, before it could even make a proper start. I think the thing that hit me hardest was the fact that your fiance was your ex-girlfriend. The bloody nympho! The one who cheated on you repeatedly in the most awful way.
You say she has changed...but i know better. I see the way she looks at every single male in the room, I see the way she seeks a way to sneak away whenever your head is turned.....i see her treacherous nature, and there is nothing i can do.
For your sake, i sincerely hope that she has changed. For the first time in my life, I pray that I will be proven wrong. You're a decent guy, and you deserve the best. My wish for you is happiness and love. And should she not have changed, for your sake i pray that you will remain blind to this fact and that you will be happy.
A little piece of my heart will always belong to you. But this is the end of our story. Not a love story as was planned but a story of friendship, of love, of life, of tragedy and of bittersweet goodbyes.
I will forever cherish the moments we shared, and the memories we built. You showed me so many different sides of myself, and taught me just how strong and how weak I can be. You built me up after another had completely ripped me to shreds and for this i will forever be indebted to you. I hope that we shall remain friends forever on this journey. And though it may be the end of one story, I pray that it will be the beginning of another.