Tuesday, August 18, 2009

To my dear dear blue eyed boy

This started out as a very emotional and heart wrenching post...but after much deliberation I ended up deleting the whole thing. I miss you, I'm worried about you and I wish that things were still they way they used to be. You were my boy, my friend and a ray of sunshine in my life. These days I hardly see you. I have no idea what is going on in your life, and the little I do know I hear from other people or through FB. I'm not sure where exactly the distance came from. I don't think either of us are to blame...I suppose it's just one of those things...but that doesn't mean I have to be happy about it.

Our conversations have lost their passion and tenderness. And we're lucky if it lasts more than 2 minutes and get much further than "hi! how are you? What have you been up to?" We used to be inseparable. You were the one person I would always phone when things got tough. The one who understood me. You GOT me.

But before I become all emotional and girly I just wanted to tell you this. I miss you! More than you can ever imagine. And I will always love you in that special way that we love each other. Closer than the bestest of friends and yet, no more than friends. Look after yourself you hear.

I love you

Ruby
xxxxx

6 comments:

Being Brazen said...

*hugs*

Bittersweet letter

Tamara said...

{{{hugs}}}

distance - the emotional type - sucks far more than the physical type, IMO.

angel said...

Wow... that brought back a BUNDLE of memories of my friend Leigh. We haven't spoken in years!

SonnyVsDan said...

you almost made me cry at work!

Ruby said...

BB - yeah

TamTam - I know...i'd rather be close emotionally and far physically than the other way around any day

Angel - it's funny how it takes just one thing to remind us of stuff like that huh? *hugs*

SvD - I'm sorry:) glad you read it tho

Jazib said...

Wow You are amazing writer!! :)